tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63865552328283668612024-03-08T22:42:57.821+05:30ReflexionsJyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-45843579316424053352018-01-21T19:23:00.000+05:302018-01-21T19:25:16.048+05:30just a horrible day?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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If someone asks me ‘how are you doing?’ (I mean really
asks me, without meaning to just say it, the way I do, when I bump into someone early
morning in the office elevator – when most times, I don’t even want to talk to
anyone until I have had my first cup of coffee) – what would I say?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Crappy? Horrible? Or simply, ‘it’s been good’
– a reply I often give when I don’t care to explain how my day was, for
somewhere I know the person asking doesn’t want me to go on ranting about my
day. How do I know that the person in front of me genuinely wants to know what
I am going through, without judging me and going tête-à-tête behind my back?</div>
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We are left with so little patience for others and even
lesser for our own selves – we even ignore what our bodies and minds screech out
to us ever so often. I learnt it the hard way when I had my first episode of
SVT and thought I was dying any moment now. Alas! The lesson was short lived! It
was just an SVT and not a heart attack and I knew it wasn’t life threatening,
just continuous discomfort throughout my days and nights and days which were
tougher than the others and nights which were darker than the rest… it was and has been just a discomfort which will not kill me and hence why must I change or do
anything about the way I feel or absorb emotions and situations around me?<o:p></o:p></div>
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Isn’t it enough to smile and say “I am doing great” when you
really are fragmenting bit by bit in your stomach. Shouldn’t what you say, each
day, mindlessly, impact your life! Positive attracting positive? Power of
positive thinking! No, for each word is a lie, and there is absolutely no synchronization
between your words and your thoughts, between your thoughts and your actions
and between your actions and your words…. Zilch! <o:p></o:p></div>
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And the best part is that you know it all, like a supra intelligent
being and yet! You are where you are… <o:p></o:p></div>
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In all this misery laden story you do have a silver lining,
you know about this person who would just know exactly what you are thinking… he
would know the moment he sees you… but somehow on these days, the days when the food tastes bad, the heat intolerable, the night too long, the fall too hard, the house too noisy, the TV too bright, the people too insensitive, the work too prosaic, he is not around… and that –
that actually makes the day a living hell…. Everything else is bearable. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-1620540164587261312016-03-08T02:14:00.001+05:302016-03-08T02:14:41.583+05:30<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: 17px;">.</span>..Yaad hai baarishon ke din the woh, aur pahaadi ke neeche waadi mein dhundh se jhaank kar nikalti hui rail kee patariyaan guzarti thee. </div>
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Aur dhundh mein aise lag rahe the ham, jaise do paudhe paas baithe hon. </div>
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Ham bahut der patariyon par baithe us musaafir ka zikra karte rahe, jisko aana tha pichhli shab, par uskee aamad ka waqt talta raha... </div>
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hum bahut der patriyon pe baithe hue train ka intazaar karte rahe. </div>
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Train aayee na uska waqt hua, aur tum yun hee do qadam chalkar dhundh par paaon rakhke gum ho gaye……</div>
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....remembering old times, old poets....</div>
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Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-89392619590391569542011-07-18T22:36:00.002+05:302011-07-18T22:38:01.675+05:30.....Apparently the earth sometimes thinks of the possibility of coming closer to the sun. But she can not do that. She is so base and his brilliance so searing, that she will cause destruction if she draws him closer....Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-22180607176154695382011-01-27T09:30:00.002+05:302011-01-27T10:02:17.916+05:30Oftentimes, some incidents, some people, some words stay put in your mind. Like fossilized bones they surface up every time you dig the dust of time and mercilessly force you to ask the same question without revealing the answer - "WHY?" - and when you once again fail to find the answer, you let the bones be, amass dust of time all over again, until its time to dig again...<div><br /></div><div>Can a name reveal an identity?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-71487672582881313372011-01-14T10:35:00.002+05:302011-01-14T10:37:50.580+05:30<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; border-collapse: collapse; "><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">Wrote a short one after a long time....Couldn't think of a title though....</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; "><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">How can I write to you what no words can explain?</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">For instance how can words sing to you?</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">A musical rendition – your first words of love,</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">That melt in the warmth of your kisses,</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">And play a lullaby to me each night away from you.</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">Or make you feel warm?</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">Like your loving caresses that embrace me,</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">In the immense lonesome winters.......</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">And pray! how can they ever love you?</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">The way I do – more tomorrow than every before</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; ">And as it is said “I shall but love thee better after death”....</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; "><br /></p></span>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-18433982745982473962010-10-26T04:22:00.000+05:302010-10-26T04:23:20.161+05:30<!--StartFragment--> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:justify"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:justify">It was an unusually quiet afternoon. I looked outside the window, turquoise blue lake Michigan smiled at me. I tried to smile back but it didn’t help. Two years – more than two years! Isn’t that a long time? - I thought to myself. How man learns to live and forget – or thinks has forgotten by consciously never letting some thoughts surface up. Today those thoughts kept coming back and I made no attempt to feign an indifference to their presence, even today, in some recess of my heart.</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:justify">Unlike many other times, they weren’t discomforting, I think after a point in ones life, one is more comfortable with just accepting the truth, and not hiding it, not running away from it. But what was the truth? And did it matter?</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:justify">I could feel the cold Scandinavian air blurring my eyes. Two years! I finally smiled to myself, nodded my head in disbelief and sat staring at my computer screen. It was an hour past after this train of thoughts had taken off an unusual journey in my mind. I hadn’t done a single bit of work today and I had no more intensions of doing so.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:justify"><o:p>Duality – duality of nature – I used to once think that this is an uncommon feature. But the more I live, the more I experience, the more I realize an element of duality in all of us – without an exception – the degree of duality might differ though.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>When I say duality, I do not mean to refer to philosophical “Dualism”, nor to “duality” as used in politics – I mean, existing as two different personalities at a point in time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>For example – extremely talkative Vs extremely quiet. Or a moralistic saint Vs a libertine.</o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:justify">I am not too sure why I thought about duality, I turned to look at the lake again – calm and serene.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>For all the disturbances, for all the good and bad that happens and will continue to happen, there was a calm in my heart too. I played my age old favourite “Yeh mera deewanapan hai”, closed my eyes and slept<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>- with all that is me, with all that makes me better or worse… with all my thoughts, peacefully rested within me…</p> <!--EndFragment-->Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-6992414434940012492009-11-01T22:48:00.008+05:302009-11-01T23:53:03.013+05:30This conversation soooooooooooooooo deserves to be somewhere more public :D (and the song that transpired it - <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dF2FOL--WXM&feature=channel">is here</a> :))<br /><br />Kanika says<br /><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}"> <span class="UIIntentionalStory_Names" ft="{"type":"name"}"></span><span class="UIStory_Message">I want to break free</span></h3><input name="charset_test" value="€,´,€,´,水,Д,Є" type="hidden"><input id="fb_dtsg" name="fb_dtsg" value="qzuiE" type="hidden"><input id="post_form_id" name="post_form_id" value="af8340f4dd439940437ab0486d629321" type="hidden"><span class="UIActionLinks UIActionLinks_bottom UIIntentionalStory_Info"><span class="UIIntentionalStory_InfoText"><span class="UIIntentionalStory_Time"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=604539921&v=feed&story_fbid=183861030912&ref=mf" onclick="'ft("><abbr class="timestamp" title="Sun, 01 Nov 2009 07:46:10 -0800"></abbr></a></span></span></span><div id="like_box_1010701681_183861030912" class="like_box has_likes like_not_exists"><div class="ufi_section participants_not_expanded"><div class="like_sentence_container"><div class="like_sentence like_sentence_not_exists like_component_not_exists"><div class="UIImageBlock clearfix"><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663129"><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Ojas Sabnis Likes it!</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/paritosh.modi" class="UIImageBlock_Image UIImageBlock_SMALL_Image" title="Paritosh Modi"></a><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Paritosh Modi</span><br /><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5aaaa7c40b565" class="comment_actual_text">tafree ke mood mein lag rahi hai ladki!!</div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663247"><abbr class="timestamp" title="Sun, 01 Nov 2009 08:22:56 -0800"></abbr><br /><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Ojas Sabnis</span><br /><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5ad844b146740" class="comment_actual_text">Chalo tafree marte hain ;)</div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div><div class="comments_list_wrapper feed_comments"><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663373"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5b0052a4c0f09" class="comment_actual_text">haan chalo... am game :D</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663500"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5b27c397d2c5c" class="comment_actual_text">Lemme also join in!!</div></div><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /></span></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663620"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5b57d46f9e88f" class="comment_actual_text">karna kyaa hia par???? main apne ghar ki khidkiyoon se jo ki chabbiswein maale par hai, usse aasmaan gotakhori karne ki sonch rahi thi... neeche phoolon waale baageeche mein phir baith kar sonchte hain ki kya karna hai!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663635"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Ojas Sabnis</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/ojasds" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5b82820bf67fe" class="comment_actual_text">Height of vettiness. Three MBA students and an evs karamchari whose laptop is running out of battery :( Nice pic btw Kanika.</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663728"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5bab728336aee" class="comment_actual_text">Yaar Ojas... pic par comment karo to pata to chale logon ko ki comment hua hai !</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663738"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5bd3d51c2fcea" class="comment_actual_text">@Ojas: Two yum-bee-yaa students wolso have assignments to be submitted tomorrow morning!!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663828"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Ojas Sabnis</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/ojasds" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5bfff21e589d7" class="comment_actual_text">Arey... baki log kahan gaye? Modi you will appreciate this.. we are drafting a patent application on a Buck Switcher. In short, we call it the Bakar (Bucker) circuit! Kanika - your comment above (re gotakhori) was a complete OHT.</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663904"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5c2880746fcdb" class="comment_actual_text">I am guessing ghotakhori is a composite word - comes from "ghot" which is ob, and "khori" which I guess means excessive :P</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6663938"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5c532277524de" class="comment_actual_text">GOyallll tumne mera YumBeeYaY chura liya Misraa ke wall post se.... haddd hai plagiarism ki.... :((<br />and I have mid term tomorrow and one day day after... and one case competition also day day after....</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664010"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5c7e912e8ec26" class="comment_actual_text">Ojas gotakhori means diving... maane sky diving karte hain...<br />Modi re kahan kho gaye tum? agar tum gore hote to yaaaa phir ganje hote to main gaati "khoya khoya chaand" :D :D</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664219"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5ca7c69b5a47c" class="comment_actual_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br />Ganja Modi- one WTF sight I tell ya!!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664234"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5cd174284ab72" class="comment_actual_text">Lekin Halloween toh kal tha :P</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664255"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Ojas Sabnis</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/ojasds" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5d26e33af8d0c" class="comment_actual_text">I wanna skydive! Main sab se bada wannabe ghotakhor hoon! Anyone else game? All the best with your assignments, mid terms etc!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664296"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a style="font-weight: bold;" href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5d4f266441370" class="comment_actual_text">haahahaaa am ROFL imagining a ganja Modi... hehehehehehe damm!!! tooo funny</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664327"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Ojas Sabnis</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/ojasds" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5d79f725d2d79" class="comment_actual_text">Ganja is still possible (and inevitable).. lekin... Gora hone ki thodi dekhil sambhavana nahi hain!!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664339"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5da134d77087a" class="comment_actual_text">@Ojas: I am in whenever we get a chance!!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664389"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Paritosh Modi</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/paritosh.modi" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5dcae174a9b43" class="comment_actual_text">bas bachhon bas!! itni bakar bhi na maaro ki haste haste pet kharaab ho jaaye!! luckily im neither gora nor ganja...to aap logon ka halloween plan gaya..but yes..if goyal can shave off his head we can have a T-rex egg for easter!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664405"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5df241ee7b927" class="comment_actual_text">@Ojas: You def do not watch SRK's ad for fairness cream for men :P</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664475"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Paritosh Modi</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/paritosh.modi" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5e19c5820d02e" class="comment_actual_text">lagta hai tune bahut lagaya hai goyal!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664485"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5e40d350d2234" class="comment_actual_text">@Pari: Lickily?? Ahem!! Case of khatte angoor I am guessing :P</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664512"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5e6b340cd3e09" class="comment_actual_text">fairness cream which comes with a fairness measuring meter ....<br />and Modi... exactly coz u are NOT gora and can BECOME ganja our halloween plan stays intact :D bass ab SRK waali cream use karna mat shuru kar dena...</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664532"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5e95213c178ce" class="comment_actual_text">not khatte angoor... khisiyaani billi khamba noche wala case maloom deta hai...</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664543"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Ojas Sabnis</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/ojasds" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5ebcd681c6751" class="comment_actual_text">Chor ki dadhi mein tinka?</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664597"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Paritosh Modi</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/paritosh.modi" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5ee546f388148" class="comment_actual_text">yes exactly..now im a cat, and now a straw in a thief's beard!! what else can i do for your halloween sirs?</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664663"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a style="font-weight: bold;" href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5f0f560339a24" class="comment_actual_text">Nothing actually.... halloween raat mein celebrate hota hai and u are also IAS - invisible after six.... so not much of a value addition to the halloween crowd visibly :D</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664710"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Ojas Sabnis</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/ojasds" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5f36d6286a2e2" class="comment_actual_text">Hehehe... IAS...Kanika on fyre!</div></div><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Paritosh Modi</span><br /></span></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664711"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/paritosh.modi" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5f5e518ab25a6" class="comment_actual_text">so all ur planning goes down the drain?!</div></div><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">AmitGoyal</span><br /></span></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664742"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5f87f38f7eca6" class="comment_actual_text">@KJo: [You share that with a wierd guy, but that is yet another conversation.] Andhere mein Modi ke chamakte hue daant - competetive advantage hain, na ki value add!!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664747"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5fb15657ba177" class="comment_actual_text">kahan yaar... how bout the sound effectsssss :) ???</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664838"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kanika Jyotsna</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd5fdc8660b9d4f" class="comment_actual_text">and yeah... chamakte hue daant :)) Modi yeh tumhare Moti jaise daanto ka raaz kya hai ???</div></div><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">OjasSabnisss</span><br /></span></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664893"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/ojasds" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd60043424287e9" class="comment_actual_text">rofl @ competitive advantage!</div></div></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6664946"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Amit Goyal</span><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/akgoyal" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd602df1ca0d5ca" class="comment_actual_text">@Ojas: Don't ROFL on CA, they are the two most important words you learn at a BSchool X(</div></div><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">KKaanikaaaa</span><br /></span></div></div><div class="ufi_section UIImageBlock clearfix" id="comment_1010701681_183861030912_6665151"><div class="UIImageBlock_Content UIImageBlock_SMALL_Content"><div class="comment_text"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/kanika.jyotsna" class="comment_author"></a><div id="text_expose_id_4aedc4bd605a11dbeaf0a" class="comment_actual_text">chalo bahut tafreee ho gayi... ab hum jaa rahe hain, incidently, i have mid term and the course is called "competitive strategy" :D<br />all the best with assignments and halloween :)</div></div><div class="comment_actions"><abbr class="timestamp" title="Sun, 01 Nov 2009 09:26:11 -0800"></abbr><br /></div></div></div></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-37529810206939003292009-08-03T09:44:00.006+05:302009-08-28T07:09:44.811+05:30Wordsworth said "I wandered lonely as a cloud..."<br /><br />From the window of the speeding car I could see the clouds. Not one but many and thought "clouds are never lonely, at least never alone". I could see them ambling together, some to a distant land, hand in hand; Some waiting to embrace each other - and the freedom! the freedom to be absolutely free on the blanket of a clear blue welkin, what else does one want?. After making this observation and feeling a little down in spirits I indulged in some self pity -<br /><br />Lonely are not the clouds, but my heart...<br />My heart knows no company<br />Like the empty welkin<br />that sees the clouds come and go<br />My heart is an observer,<br />and there ends the role.<br />The clouds are frivolous,<br />But the shallow often win.<br />There is no time to measure,<br />The vastness of the welkin.<br />Alas! better alone,<br />than incomplete in company.<br />The emptiness in my heart,<br />And the emptiness of the welkin,<br />have a faith in each others keeping.<br />Sometimes we smile each other,<br />And know there is somebody waiting...<br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-24478954414645399092009-07-31T21:23:00.002+05:302009-07-31T21:48:08.124+05:30Saw Love Aaj Kal today. Was ok. Some moments in the movie reminded me of a poem I had read long time back. I think this poem is by an anonymous poet. I had memorized one of its paragraphs that I like the best :) It went like this<br /><br />By absence this good means I gain<br />That I can catch her<br />Where none can watch her<br />In some close corner of my brain<br />There I embrace and kiss her<br />And so I both enjoy and miss her<br /><br />:) sweet!<br /><br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-20292508754374160972009-07-30T22:36:00.002+05:302009-07-30T23:45:47.543+05:30FeedbackNow that I have changed the blog template, would like some honest feedback. Hope this new look is much more comfortable to your eyes.<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-55391711127330724512009-07-29T13:16:00.012+05:302009-07-31T00:36:42.992+05:30"There is a pleasure in the pathless woods<br />There is a rapture on the lonely shore<br />There is a society where none intrudes<br />By the deep sea and music in its roar<br />I love not man the less but nature more"<br /><br /><br />I was seated in airbus A320, we were walking through the rain wet runway preparing for a flight. The aircraft was virtually empty. Indigo doesn't give the feel of a low cost airline - No eye sore uniforms or seat covers, no half read news papers forced into the seat back covers, no cheap perfume bottles walking down the aisle, no frowning twisted faces selling tasteless food. I had no reason to doubt that this late night flight would not be a very comfortable one, when suddenly I spotted a gentleman, sitting diagonally opposite in the row right in front of me, moving restlessly about his axis. Like a worried little birdie his head revolved in all possible directions. He was clearly not comfortable. I looked away to concentrate on more pleasing visuals. The craft was still walking, the runway was glistening in beautiful hues, there were capillaries of water droplets running through the window, I remember thinking about my school days. During heavy rains the schools would shut down on occasion of a "rainy day holiday". We were never allowed to play in the rains. I remember standing in the veranda and looking at bubbles and saucers that would form on the floor. How I wished to go and burst those bubbles and jump amidst the watery saucers. Sometimes I stretched my hand out to feel the rain and at more brave times ran into the rain but rushed back again lest someone should see and scold me. I loved the perfume the earth exuded at those times. We had a little garden that was home to a lot of flowering plants and insects. After the rains my favourite pass time was making mud houses in the garden and teasing earthworms. I would take a long twig and let the worm walk up on it from one end. The worm would keep walking till he met the end and then retrace his path - I found this game extremely amusing.<br /><br />"Aapse aaj hum door sahi..." some old hindi song, the gentleman in the front row had managed to distract me once again, he was playing this music aloud on his cellphone or MP3 player, couldn't make out what it was. Felt a strong urge to request him to shut the music down, I was not very interested in an RJ concert, but refrained. Fighting at 10 in the night is not the right thing to do, especially when one has more beautiful memories to keep one busy. My request at that hour would have rather sounded like a rude order.<br /><br />The craft was steady, we were ready to take off. It is such a feeling of elation when you head towards the sky. I looked through the window as the plane soared higher and higher. Mumbai looked beautiful. The well lit roads resembled gold embalmed lasso. We hit the monsoon clouds and soon were sailing inbetween clouds and a clear black sky studded with stars and a smiling moon - What a painter's paradise! I wish I had a camera. The painting was soon lost.<br /><br />I decided to sleep, but the gentleman had moved from bearable old hindi songs to unbearable junk. I tried to ignore him and his music, like everybody else, and get some sleep. But looked like God had some other plans. I could feel my nose pain once again. Earlier that day I had gone out shopping with my bhabhi. She was pleased to see that I had now bowed to the family tradition and had my nose pierced. So went the conversation while walking on the roads of Lokhandwala<br /><br />Bhabhi - This looks very nice on you<br />Me- Yep! I like it, though I was thinking of something funkier, a nose ring instead of a stud<br />Bhabhi-hmmm, that would look very nice<br />Bhabhi-chalo wahan chalte hain (pointing at a showroom)<br />Me-whats that! a jewelery shop! no I was joking, I dont want anything<br />Bhabhi-Chal naa<br />Me-When is there a single time that you listen to me?<br /><br />Now inside the shop<br /><br />Bhabhi to the shopkeeper - nose ring???<br />Shopkeeper-Upstairs maam<br /><br />Upstairs in the shop, a tired looking middle aged women smiled at us - was it a smile? I dont remember<br /><br />Bhabhi- nose rings dikhaiye<br /><br />Lady opens a box full of diamond studded rings<br /><br />Me-This is NOT done!!!!! I dont want all of this (it was dearth costly)<br />Bhabhi-Ruk!, hmm this one, it looks so beautiful<br />Me-It is diamond, it shines sooooo much, I dont like it, not on me atleast, kitna gaudy hai (it was beautiful though, must confess)<br />Bhabhi-wear it and show it to me<br /><br />She forced me to take off my nose stud and try this funky nose ring<br /><br />Me-it has a fat end, doesnt go in besides its diamond, I dont like diamonds, not so many of them<br />Lady-Diamond nahi pehnogi to aur kya pehnogi? main pehnati hun<br /><br />I soooo needed her opinion!!! She took the ring and forced it in - whooshhh, stream of blood. Ouch! this was not planned<br /><br />Bhabhi-leave it leave it.... (she was sooo worried)<br />Me-I told you! lets get this hell out and go<br />Lady-itna chota ched kyun hai nose kaa???<br /><br />Valid question! after puncturing my nose!!!<br /><br />The nose was still paining and paining badly. The music was not helping either. The painting was gone and there was nothing to keep me busy. Oh wait! the book, the Ruskin Bond... Hell! I left it at Bhaiyya's place. So the journey was turning out to be quite not like what I had expected it would be. What do I do now???<br /><br />First - ask the idiot of the man to turn the music down - as politely as possibly<br /><br />Me- "Excuse me - dont you think not many must be interested in the music?"<br />Man ( looks at me puzzled!, he was just entertaining people) - "amm band karta hun"<br />Me- "Turant kar dijiye please. So good of you" (with a nasty smile)<br />Man- (embarrassed)<br />Me- (Yesss!!!! deep down intentions met!)<br /><br />I was already feeling better. The nose was paining a bit less or so I felt. I could sleep now - and I slept!<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-52297719505129958452009-07-26T14:41:00.003+05:302009-07-26T15:02:57.676+05:30I was brought back to where I was by a loud howling noise. He was crying again. I looked away from the book and realized that I was not alone in the room. Sometimes there is just too much silence. Maa and sis equally busy with their books made perfect furniture - motionless and soundless. But he was crying and clearly of the three, I was the most distracted. "Ina" I called out my sister - no response. "INA WHY is HE crying?, can you please go take a look". I was too tired to move out of the bed, last night's three hours driving horror was still weighing me down. "I think he is getting a bath, he doesn't like water all over him", she moved back into reading. Hmmm the dog and his incessant cries were driving me mad, so I got up and went to investigate the matter. Karan Bhaiyya was bathing him. Dobby, the dog was distracted on seeing me and stopped whimpering for a few seconds, only to resume, this time looking hopefully at me to save him from the tenacities of Karan Bhaiyya. "Didi, bahut rota hai yeh" - bhaiyya tried to provide me with an explaination. I smiled "Hmm" and walked away.<br /><br />Back in the room, both ladies were still glued to books, two fans moving sluggishly, as if in pain, a window overlooking a park right across the road, long curtains filtering the sunlight, making everything look gloomier - a stage set for a perfect sad movie. To everyone's discontent I broke the silence again, someone for a coffee? When I dont understand anything I drink coffee. I got two exhilarated responses "ammm", not knowing how to interpret these extremely meaningful answers, I went and made a coffee just for myself. Then I thought of writing something. Hence this piece. It was more out of horror of losing everything I possess. I was thinking that with time I seem to have lost everything that I once used to do - no dance, no painting, no poetry, no prose, no tennis, no volleyball, no music no nothing!!! Life is getting busier with more unimportant improtant things like job, like MBA, like networking - how i have come to hate this word!! But the best part is that unlike most of us, I have had the opportunity to spend some good time at home, with my folks, before brutalities of life hit me with full force :). And I thank God for that.<br /><br />I am reminded of a few lines I had written some ages back, lemme see if I can make a worthy attempt at recalling them<br /><br />Solemn in my heart<br />Somber in my eyes<br />These last moments of togetherness<br />Fearing the fall of night<br /><br />And often in our silences<br />Under the shadows of our eyes<br />We exchange some glances<br />To reaffirm our ties<br /><br />The time is flying by<br />And no one understands<br />The language it speaks<br />Or the game it plans<br /><br />yet a comfort in the fear<br />A comfort in not knowing<br />There are some to share your silences<br />To let you fall and fight<br /><br />To still hold you up<br />With nothing but a smile<br />With a warm touch or a glance<br />Making you feel worthwhile<br /><br />...... I forget the concluding paragraphs, I had written this one when I was moving away from family to pursue higher professional goals and the same holds true, once again today.<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-38992995549505609642009-03-05T13:43:00.002+05:302009-05-14T23:57:16.162+05:30Some more lost music....<br />Thousand Desires Such As These -<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">A thousand desires such as these<br />A thousand moments to set this night on fire<br />Reach out and you can touch them,<br />You can touch them with your silences,<br />You can reach them with your lust.<br />Rivers, Mountains, Rain - Rain against a torrid hillscape<br />A thousand, a thousand desires such as these<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><em>Hazaron Khwahishein Aisi Ki Har Khwahish Pe Dam Nikale<br />Bahut Nikale Mere Armaan Phir Bhi Kam Nikale</em><br /><br />I loved rain as a child, as a lost young man<br />Empty landscapes bleached by a tired sun<br />And then, and then -<br />Suddenly it came like a dark, unknown women<br />Her eyes scorched my silences,<br />Her body wrapped itself like a summer without end……<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><em>Nikalna khud se adam ka sunte aaye the lekin<br />Bahut beabaroo ho kar tere kooche se hum nikale<br />Hazaron Khwahishein Aisi Ki Har Khwahish Pe Dam Nikale<br />Bahut Nikale Mere Armaan Phir Bhi Kam Nikale</em><br /><br />Pause me, hold me, reach me where no man has gone<br />Crossing the seven seas, over the wind of fire I fly towards nowhere<br />And you?<br />Rivers, Mountains, Rain - Rain against a scortched landscape of pain<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><em>Mohabbat mein nahi hai fark jeene aur marne ka<br />Usi ko dekh kar jeete hain jis kaafir pe dam nikale</em><br /><br />A thousand desires such as these<br />A thousand moments to set this night on fire<br />Reach out and you can touch them<br />You can touch them with your silences<br />You can reach them with your lust<br />Rivers, Mountains, Rain - Rain against a torrid hillscape<br />A thousand, a thousand desires such as these………………………………<br /></span><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-23845988296846936972008-12-02T17:19:00.003+05:302009-07-22T16:07:14.214+05:30With Myself<p> Did you notice, it smells winter already.<br />The sky still dark, the birds beginning to sing...<br />Oh it’s so beautiful, this morning – a forgotten reverie.<br />Can you hear the softly rustling leaves?<br />The rhythm of droplets from the leaking water pipe?<br />The music just beginning to be born.</p><p>Do you have some time to walk with me?<br />Across that canopied road?<br />I wish to bathe in the innocence again.<br />And we walked, in silence of our thoughts<br />Tramping the dew wet leaves<br />Passing through our frozen breaths<br />She broke the silence</p><p>Do you know you bound me so much?<br />I have a bad knee and a bad shoulder,<br />Had to see the doctor,<br />Had promised to meet my best friend,<br />And to spend the weekend with Maa.<br />I waited so long for you to find time.<br />I heard, her voice - now breaking<br />And carefully wrapped her in the warmth of my arms.<br />Today, my dear, we shall go, and shall be together<br />I spoke out loud<br />And that was a Saturday, well spent, with myself….</p><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-73272455294178613792008-09-17T19:06:00.000+05:302008-09-17T19:08:04.165+05:30The birth<p>Now the birth of wisdom and dawn,</p><p>Now the garb of false images is gone,</p><p>Rise and touch your truth - your soul </p><p>and leave behind that spurious role.</p><p>World is your home, walk in pride</p><p>I-your testimony in this gallant ride... </p>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-8227322886677882212008-05-01T13:00:00.003+05:302009-07-22T16:11:55.954+05:30Once again some crazy aimless chatter with myselfWonder what they have to say<br />Those sparkling dust molecules,<br />Struggling to find their place,<br />Lost in frantic collisions,<br />Streaming through the florescent glow.<br /><br />With zillion water droplets,<br />Striking my face and dropping dead,<br />I ponder what this night has in store.<br /><br />Alone in this swanky city,<br />in a hotel room, neat and empty<br />I prepare myself to feel comforted<br />And alas! Fail each night.<br /><br />Its 8:00 PM and bright as dawn,<br />Light fills my room with a stifling gloom,<br />Its unnatural I tell myself,<br />Life as such makes no sense.<br /><br />Now in my bed, white as foam<br />And soft as feather,<br />I fight to find a comfortable corner,<br />Its difficult to read, since my mind is full,<br />And its difficult to sleep since my eyes are full.<br /><br />And as usual I expect a miracle<br />To pull me away from these thorny nights,<br />To help me make sense of this life,<br />To help me walk this dark side.<br /><br />And I am still staring at those dust particles<br />As restless as me, my friends in disguise,<br />Sharing something common,<br />No identity, no meaning,<br />Or perhaps something,<br />Still struggling to find….<input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-50009058360942062402008-02-14T19:26:00.001+05:302008-02-14T19:27:47.709+05:30All You who Sleep Tonight<em>On the occasion of Valentine's day..... A poem by Vikram Seth</em><br /><br /><br />All you who sleep tonight<br />Far from the ones you love,<br />No hand to left or right<br />And emptiness above -<br />Know that you aren't alone<br />The whole world shares your tears,<br />Some for two nights or one,<br />And some for all their years.Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-56372653632098312762008-01-22T11:51:00.001+05:302009-07-22T16:45:27.290+05:30Dream...and he was soon diffusing<br />into the morning aisle,<br />I pulled the sheet above my face,<br />to hold him for a while.<br /><br />I wished so much for a minute or two,<br />to dream again the charming you.<br />Alas! the moments were fading fast,<br />Not even for a while to last.<br /><br />Stranger you must come back again,<br />for a longer time you must remain,<br />And let me into this mystical air,<br />tonight and tomorrow in one more prayer.<input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6386555232828366861.post-33201332569956774702007-11-27T21:41:00.001+05:302009-05-12T23:11:03.015+05:30You must be wonderingAll right all right! I deleted everything which was there till date on my blog, and some of you might really hate me for doing so. But we can always create our little new worlds. So lets see.... :) Kind of tired of writing... Will continue posting in some days.<br /><br />Until then tata and have fun!!!<input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div>Jyotsnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00236766080665465760noreply@blogger.com4